mind reader

Hello everyone. I really miss this site.
I miss write something absurd or just keep the moment i have.
Sorry my english not getting better orz
I just want to share my recent activity and something that bother my mind.

Next month my age become 20 yo.
I didn't achieve anything. I just become older and older. I feel let everything behind and regret later.

There big stone in my heart and my mind that can't out of my body. I just worried about my future. Can i have a proper job and make my parents proud with my less experience and low score.

My mind say i can do it but i didn't do anything. I want to experience something that make my heart pound and get experience.

Yes i just can say and "mengeluh" without do anything. I want to cry but it's useless. I try to be strong, yes i can but it didn't make any different. I just become strong and adult ini my 19th but i want to be busy. I want to can arrange my schedule with my business.

Sorry i just complain in here. You don't need to reed haha and sorry my english not too good but i will try my best hehe